Losing my mind
I really should send myself notes during the day. I swear I thought of four or five things over the course of the day that I wanted to blog about, but I can’t remember a single one of them.
Human relations have been strained for me the last couple of weeks, and if I believed in things like astrology, I’d be looking for some kind of celestial reasoning for it all. I’ve managed to offend people at nearly every turn, and I’m only grateful to those who have had the kindness to allow me to learn and grow from the experience instead of just walking away. I’ll be glad when this tension eases, however, and I’m once again able to interact easily and peacefully with my fellow humans. Maybe I just need a really good nap.
Volume thirteen of xxxHolic was released yesterday, and I shockingly forgot to pick up a copy then. I finally managed this on the way home from work today, and I’ve had a really enjoyable evening with it. Expect coherent thoughts sometime in the next few days, when I can work my way past undignified squee. I also picked up volume 22 of Fruits Basket while I was there, since I’d intended to purchase it last week, so I have that to look forward to as well.
Hopefully I’ll be back tomorrow with all those ideas that fled from me today. See you then!
March 25th, 2009 at 9:27 pm
If it makes you feel any better, I have no future in politics.
Last week during a community meeting I offended my local state senator when I basically called him childish. Yeah, I did, and yeah, it was kinda true. But he didn’t like it. I was trying to be funny. I think I failed.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 6:27 am
I’ve been struggling a lot lately with when joking is appropriate, how much honesty is appropriate, etc. I feel your pain. :)
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March 26th, 2009 at 7:44 am
I’ve often felt that my passion for moving had to do with offending people. I figured after I had made enough faux pas, (is that plural, too?) it was time go somewhere else. You are far better than I at human relations.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 8:47 am
I think we both feel the same way, actually. I know that’s part of why I’ve always liked moving around too. I think I’ve been at my job too long. :)
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jansong@livejournal Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 8:54 am
Time to start planning and scheming. :)
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 8:56 am
*Or* time to figure out how to clean up my own messes and live with the aftermath. I’m not sure which. Hee. :)
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jansong@livejournal Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 8:59 am
Or, that, too. :) Need a good chat.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 9:00 am
Yes, definitely. :)
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March 26th, 2009 at 7:49 am
I am very hard-pressed to imagine you offending anyone. You’ve always seemed hyper-considerate to me.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 8:48 am
Oh, you would be surprised how much of a screw-up I can be in that department. I try really hard, and then one day I’m just really tired or stressed or whatever, and something stupid comes out. *sigh*
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Michelle Smith Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 9:12 am
Ah, so maybe that’s why you’re always worried about people thinking you’re irksome? :)
I know I have the verbal skills to be particularly scathing if I choose, so I try to keep that reined in. It’s a good thing I can really only unleash it when I’m good and mad, which doesn’t happen often or last very long.
One thing that really upsets me is having unintentionally upset someone. Some random remark I thoughtlessly made that makes my friend/coworker think I don’t want to help her, etc. Or trying to help my unemployed friend find work by bringing vacancies to her attention, all the while not knowing that this was giving the impression that I thought she was lazy.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 9:17 am
Heh, perhaps so. I guess I always feel like a screw-up on the inside. :)
I almost always offend people unintentionally. It’s not so much scathing remarks that come out, but thoughtless ones. I guess I can at least be happy that people have been mostly up-front about the fact that I’ve upset them recently. The thing I fear the most is that I’ll offend people and they’ll just quietly go away, leaving me forever ignorant of what I’ve done.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
March 26th, 2009 at 9:18 am
Also, I’ll sometimes think myself into corners, which wouldn’t be a problem, except that I often think out loud, so people think that something that to *me* was just the process of reaching a conclusion was the actual conclusion.
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